I have one addiction
And it comes and goes
But when if comes it stays
Like a creepy relative that just showed up at a family reunion and just won't leave until he is deceived into departing
My addiction is sadness
Sadness is addictive and it knows no bounds, it spills out like a sea of grey over your body slowly drowning you from within
And we all know the hymn of sadness
The tears burn tracks down cheeks and all you see is darkness
Engulfed in perpetual night you try to fight but a stone is placed on your chest and you forget to breath
Gasping for air
You struggle with cries of despair
The only soundtrack a sigh
And whilst bowie was wondering if there was life on Mars
I was buried ten feet under the earths core
Hoping for some cure.
There is no off switch
Just a mood switch
From grey to black and darker again
Comsumed by a black hole finding a new dimension a deeper way to isolate yourself some more
At least that's what I got from interstellar
Except there is no wormhole
There's just pure realization
No way to cheat yourself out of being sad
You keep going
But it's always the hard way
They said I should write
And so I did
They asked blue or red pill
One will make the world stand still
The other will speed it up
I told them I don't mean to be abrupt bit id rather still be true within my head than be floating with Angeles
Because all I'll get is numbness
And all that brings is nothingness
And if you know anything about nothingness
Then you know that it's hollow
And that path that your mother told you to follow
Has been long scorched from your memory
Because as the emptiness sinks in
Your essence withers
And evaporates
But I'm not afraid
Because at the end of that tunnel
Is a reminder to breath
And I'll remember my first breath as if it was my last.
I'm okay.