I guess I got the answer I needed.
If we cover enough of our faces in paint
Will you take me home, frame me on your wall?

I wish I hadn't been so wrong.
A shield, armor, and sword bare my middle name
Sirens on heavy rocks, singing next to me
I hoped it would be you.

But I guess, I knew all along
Just this morning, I remembered your hesitance
For my art work.
You only wanted to read the poems about you
Every time I explained artistry and palettes
You seemed confused, belittling
"Thats really...heavy."
You didn't want to watch my past
Or embrace the way I contrast
Against the decorations of your life.

So I guess I got the answer I needed.
A coward caught up in his computer screen.
I just wanted to mean, everything.
I guess I always do.
Because I leave my mark,
And swim on.

Mama says its gotta be another woman
An exotic, woman she's gotta have something I don't
But the women of the now and I
We shake our heads at this old school type of thought
Like the wrecking ***** in power suits
Only strong brave men, can waltz next to.

I guess I wish my fears hadn't come true
But it only felt so good to kiss and love
A computer screen a little bit.
I am not really sure why everyone else holds hands
But I choose to keep myself from settling.

I know I leave
Don't have time for folks that give cowardly answers
Or women that assume its another woman
Or ex boyfriends who just want me for the weekend

I get my name in that paper,
Paint myself like a beastly swan doll
If you thought you could take me down
Or think less of me
You got nothing at all.

I yell at the ceiling sometimes,
Get me the **** out of this place.
But soon in time.
It all feels impossible
Like I am out on my own
But thats because I am.

So I dry my face,
Know that this is not my end destination
It never was.

I stand at the center of the stage
My black cape
Long swan limbs and I
No man could ever take away.