I WONDER IF DRINKING COULD CURE DEPRESSION. MAYBE ERASE ALL THE MEMORIES. CAUSE WERE ALL CHEWED UP AND SPIT OUT.  SITTING IN THE TUB AT 7:30 PM CLOTHES HEAVY HANGING ONTO MY BODY CLINGING TO ME LIKE ILL DISINAGRATE I WISH ID DISINAGRATE CAUSE THIS WATER ISNT HOT ENOUGH EVEN THOUGH MY SKIN IS RED IT CAN DROWND MY BODY BUT THE WORDS FLOAT ON THE SURFACE. PULLING ME BACK UP BACK UP BACK UP. JUST LET ME SLEEP IN THIS HELLISH OASIS, OASIS I LIKE THAT WORD. SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING A GIRL AND A GUY USE WHEN SPEAKING OF TRUE LOVE. I LET OUT A SOFT GIGGLE IT COMES OUT AS BUBBLES REACHING THE TOP FLEEING MY MOUTH. Hallelujah what is love hallelujah what is love hallelujah what is love?