Why why did you have to die
Losing you was the most painful things
Crying over once happy memories
forever holding onto the **** you left behind
I lost hope long ago
Thinking of you brings more tears to my eyes than a new born child
When you died
When I saw your casket I wanted to go with you
You ******* you promised to live a good life
I couldn’t accept it even if I tried
I miss you I miss talking to you I miss how you smiled even though life through so much stuff at you
And even though life ****** you kept your head up
You were suppost to do big things , we were suppost to grow up together
You were suppost to be here when I cried to tell me everything will be ok
Well now its not the same and I cant stop crying
You were smart, you understood me ,
Talked with you almost every night for hours on end
im on edge and try to call you out of habit  
but the phones been disconnected
And I punch a wall until my hand starts to bleed because  I cant take the agony of being the one left behind
You ******* what about the people you left behind to cry
Your voice is ingrained  into my head every day like a broken record
I feel like you purposely gave me a scar so I could never forget you
We never once had a bad time between us , and I regret nothing ive said to you but it still hurts

I should just die because I cant go on without you
Im left all alone