Right now I feel like exploding
I have so many words to say yet I have none at all
Not a single word of the mortal tongue can describe this feeling
It is dread and despair locked together with confusion and regret
But it is still much better then the happiness of water
I'm more afraid of my own smiles then my tears
I don't know what to do or why
I'm afraid that whatever joy I gain will be lost
I don't want to feel empty again
So I'll feel bitter and alone instead