I choose the lonely puppy cowering in the corner I adopt the shivering stray I carry the wolf collapsed on the road
I eat stale bread burnt gluten free waffles straight grapefruit juice cinnamon on the tongue pickle juice and spicy foods that produce tears
I sit in the snow in shorts and tank I leave the curler in my hair too long burning my stale hair always I wash my hands until they bleed I eat until I'm sick I scream until my throat is raw
I wash myself under scolding water that leaves my back acne ridden itchy and tomato red
I sleep until I'm disoriented and sick then I sleep some more
I cry rivers- never just one tear
I dare not speak a word on my mind I dare not speak the truth homework pages blank no strength to go to school I dress too plain or too crazy too bulky or too tight
playing Jenga with responsibilities and never winning drowning in being alive but not really trying to swim.
I do everything too much, or not at all compensating for a million different things.