I loved that shirt you wore today
The one that is dark blue and plaid
With your dark chestnut leather shoes
Looser fitting dark jeans
Complementing your freshly cut wavy hair
And light eyes
You look different now
Now that you are with her
Or maybe you have just grown
You are a man now
Is that possible?
You are a man?
Calling you a man makes me feel like a woman
We're so old now, five years later and we're here
Me looking at you and you looking like a man
There's something instinctual in that
Me wanting you like a woman does
Like in all the dreams I've ever dreamt
Without telling myself to dream of you
You are the one in them waiting for me
Making up for lost time
Being who I'd always wished you would be to me
I can admire you from afar
Because that's all that's that
I can't come too close
Because of her and of him
And you wouldn't want it anyway
I can't remember how it feels
To be held by you
I can't remember how you smell
Because it's been so long
I can't remember many thing about us
I've forgotten almost all
All but what I've written down
I am the ex-girlfriend
The one who holds on too long
Who feels things she shouldn't
The one that's long forgotten