it was never what they did to me that hurt the most
the way they used my heart, my soul, my body
no, it was that when they got their fill they left
and what hurt the most was i knew they were going to

                                                             ­                                         and i let them

i guess a part of me hoped one of them would stay
a part of me hoped i was loveable, and not a toy
but that's all i ever was, and all ill ever be
they were never going to care, only use and steal

                                                          ­                                  continuously break me

there is never going to be a real guy
who will want to settle down with me and love me
because i want to be used and broken and torn
its who ive become because they made me this way

                                                            ­                  *loneliness always engulfing