When I look back at my life I am ******.
My hands clench in rage every few minutes
just thinking about it.
Furious...,
bending beneath the overwhelming, suffocating feeling.
like somehow I have been cheated!

Even worse...
If I had a chance to start over...
to undo the mistake of my past...
I am not smarter enough,
confident enough,
or lucky enough,
to do one single thing differently.