i feel an addict
with my head swimming in chemicals and hormones
wishing for things that could never be
maybe it's called hallucinating
i'm feeling things that shouldn't be there
this happiness is so artificial it's not fair
soon i'll come crashing down
a ****** after a high
just loving him to get by
and i'll ***** my arms until i can feel
something that seems just as real
don't take this away
let me have my high
because it never lasts long anyway
i only want to get my-

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