Never have I felt worse

I keep telling myself
That everything's just fine
Without you by my side
But my soul still aches
Every time I see your face
Because it reminds me
That my arms
Will never again hold you

I've been smiling a bit brighter
Laughing a little louder
Yet crying a lot harder
And it is slowly killing me

It takes ten times longer
To put myself together
After each time I break
No matter how hard I try
I keep coming back

I told you once
You were like a drug
Well it is hard not to relapse

The days pass fast
But there's no way I can get rid off
This thoughts of you
Keeping me up late
Through this endless nights