If someone were to lurk in my mind.
If someone were to see what goes on on there.
Would they understand? Would they see?

I am not happy,
Nor am I depressed.
If they knew my past,
Would they judge me?

Of course they would.
This life we live,
Is so scary.

Would they understand?
Would they see?
I do not self harm,
I hate pain.

Pain sometimes is my only escape.
I'm lonely,
I need someone
But I hate people, they are annoying.

If they knew my past,
Would they judge me?  
Why wouldn't they?

Its life they say.
If this is life.
I don't want to go through it.
Awake me when it gets better.