Feb 2015
When I heard the words "You never know who your real friends are."
I thought that I was okay with the tight knit circle of people I'm with
Until the people that I stood tall with,
had knocked me down, taken me for granted,
like I was always going to be there
when I was on the ground, still ready to give them the world.
The night when I was laying in an idle car with tears in my eyes,
wanting to forget who I was,
wondering why I had always had to be second best,
I realized that the people I knew before had changed
Maybe complete monsters, ego centric human beings
and I've got a lot to be okay with when these realizations hit
Because now I know nothings going to be okay
especially not when I feel safe around someone
But now I'm only going to move on.
I thought that I was okay with the tight knit circle of people I'm with
Until the people that I stood tall with,
had knocked me down, taken me for granted,
like I was always going to be there
when I was on the ground, still ready to give them the world.
The night when I was laying in an idle car with tears in my eyes,
wanting to forget who I was,
wondering why I had always had to be second best,
I realized that the people I knew before had changed
Maybe complete monsters, ego centric human beings
and I've got a lot to be okay with when these realizations hit
Because now I know nothings going to be okay
especially not when I feel safe around someone
But now I'm only going to move on.
Last night, my friend ditched me because I was upset.
She left with her boyfriend and probably won't feel bad.
A couple of weeks ago, I lost a friend.
She was caught up in herself and acted like I was nothing
She probably doesn't think about me
Another friend ignores me constantly,
I know I'm not overbearing, because I never try to be.
So I gave up trying with them.
There's so many more that let me down
But they're not going to matter soon enough.
She left with her boyfriend and probably won't feel bad.
A couple of weeks ago, I lost a friend.
She was caught up in herself and acted like I was nothing
She probably doesn't think about me
Another friend ignores me constantly,
I know I'm not overbearing, because I never try to be.
So I gave up trying with them.
There's so many more that let me down
But they're not going to matter soon enough.
