I catch myself sometimes
Smiling
Laughing at a joke from my father
Or a silly dance by my sister
And in that quick second I forget what I did
I forget how I hurt them
I stop feeling guilty
Because I forgot what a monster I am
Life is funny that way
You have seconds of joy when you forget your past
Than it all comes back
In a blast on your mind
Everything was just fine
To bad it's never the real Happy