Looking at pictures of your ex on Facebook at three o’clock in the morning never helped anyone my mother says with her bittersweet chocolate voice flowing through the phone.
But she can’t remember the time when he took me to the fair and won me a sickly carnival fish swimming in circles, banging its head on the glass of a too-small fishbowl filled with icy blue water. We named him Bear so he would grow big and strong fed him all the love we could muster up.
The best we could give was an old plastic cup much too small for love to grow the way it needs to. I looked into the fish’s blank eyes and saw a piece of me I had not seen before and in the morning there he was belly-up, eyes blank as before.
He said sometimes that's just what happens when you love someone too much. He was right.