I am waiting
for the day
you come and find me
here
giving me all
the love you have
withheld
and I will show you
the depths of my heart
I will meet you in the abyss
I will not be half hearted
no
no more
you will teach me
why my heart
felt so heavy
waiting for you
in you I will see
every reason I could not love
him
or him
or him
or him
I was saving it all for you
and now I know
the holes in my heart
and the chaos in my head
were all for you
because of you
the suffering was so sweet
you were worth the Empty Januaries
and the Hardest September of My Life
but now you are here
and these are no more
my heart is open
and I can love you
you are here
the whole world stops