Feb 2015
Being ill for almost a week literally takes away all the energy I have.
I can be fine one minute, and then filled with exhaustion the next.
I feel as though this subtle little cold is trying to take control of me.
I am sitting here and for some reason feel as though I shouldn't be.
I feel as though I should be in my bed with a blanket to comfort me.
I know that it's normal to feel this way after sleeping in for 3 days.
But I still feel like I have enough energy to take on this hectic day.
I feel like I can only make it for so long before I crash into this hole.
This hole of wanting to sleep away this day and just lay down a while.
But I know that I can't do that because I have to be responsible today.
I need to make it through this school day and get to my chorus class.
To think that I need to wait five hours and forty-five minutes till then.
My mind is just about to go nuts as I say this to all of you right now.
But I will not let my body win, I will not succumb to this tiredness.
I won't succumb to the way I feel that is trying to take hold of me.
I have someone here who means so much to me that I wanna see.
I have missed them so much the last five days since last Friday.
So I need to be strong and I need to try to hang on as long as I can.
I may be breaking, but I am by no means broken, not here, not now.
So I will be strong and will overpower this feeling that is taking over.
I will win this fight and will go on with this exhausting day ahead.
Or, I can hang on for as long as I can and just wait till period 5/6.
I don't know how long I can last, but I know I can do it right now.
I have to, I have too much to do today to leave in a few small hours.
So I will be strong and will fight my way through this long, long day.
I can be fine one minute, and then filled with exhaustion the next.
I feel as though this subtle little cold is trying to take control of me.
I am sitting here and for some reason feel as though I shouldn't be.
I feel as though I should be in my bed with a blanket to comfort me.
I know that it's normal to feel this way after sleeping in for 3 days.
But I still feel like I have enough energy to take on this hectic day.
I feel like I can only make it for so long before I crash into this hole.
This hole of wanting to sleep away this day and just lay down a while.
But I know that I can't do that because I have to be responsible today.
I need to make it through this school day and get to my chorus class.
To think that I need to wait five hours and forty-five minutes till then.
My mind is just about to go nuts as I say this to all of you right now.
But I will not let my body win, I will not succumb to this tiredness.
I won't succumb to the way I feel that is trying to take hold of me.
I have someone here who means so much to me that I wanna see.
I have missed them so much the last five days since last Friday.
So I need to be strong and I need to try to hang on as long as I can.
I may be breaking, but I am by no means broken, not here, not now.
So I will be strong and will overpower this feeling that is taking over.
I will win this fight and will go on with this exhausting day ahead.
Or, I can hang on for as long as I can and just wait till period 5/6.
I don't know how long I can last, but I know I can do it right now.
I have to, I have too much to do today to leave in a few small hours.
So I will be strong and will fight my way through this long, long day.
I know, I'm talking about a cold. Does that seem weird? All I know is that I'm trying my best not to fall asleep as I write this. Since this is school and we are absolutely not allowed to sleep here. So I wrote this to express myself and see if it would help wake me up. It has a little, but I think I need to write some more. Thanks to anyone who decided to read this and maybe liked it or even commented on it :) Bye!
