how am i suppose
to feel most comfortable
around a man
who i call my brother
who fights with me
until im on the ground
and im at no return
and still hits me one last time
while im already
not able to move
because of all the pain
he causes me
and then when he breaks my
little "emotion" system
and then tears roll down my eyes
and they cut like a knife
he looks at me and laughs
then freaks
when he knows
there is no way
i want to live through another day