What have I done to you? My lambs ear child grown thorns Along the backbone of our narrative Each vertebra a catastrophe And I can’t make skeletons fall in love with me No matter how much flesh I force on them And in the interludes of the symphony they wrote for us I taught you dark by darkness I watered you with gasoline And snatched each word from off your tongue I sprayed fresh poison into your lungs And I can still recall The twelve tears Blurring that birthday That suffocating epiphany Of this-has-gone-too-far And these aren’t scars They’re time bombs Landmines in the marrow of your bones And this is not a ******* throne It’s an electric chair Look at me I dyed my hair And I mourn us with the black around my eyes Here we are we walk this line I ask you how you are And you say “fine” And I am shocked at how much those thorns sting me Every ******* time.