I used to want to get drunk to have some sort of momentary happiness even if it would only last for a few hours But I donβt want that anymore I want real happiness that stems from love and any form of security I used to talk about choosing joy when I had it But when you have to choose it's so much harder to favor it Because it's more like grasping at straws than making a choice It's like staring at something you want so desperately through a wall made entirely of glass and I'm trying to break through But I just end up with bruised fists and ****** knuckles