soft freckles try to hide as
auburn hair falls delicately
across her left cheek
I am captured by the moment
feelings of inadequacy boil up
and I try to convince myself
I am worth her love—
setting on the edge of the sofa
mindlessly eating a sandwich
part of me, lost in a daydream
desires to be the bread
if only to experience even more of her –
electric shock travels the length of my body
as her nimble fingers
rub across my knee
and a realization begins to take hold
twelve years in, and I still feel this way—
a single tear wells up in my right eye
and falls down, creating a spot on my jeans
signifying my lack of emotional control
when considering our love
and life together –