You can pray to your god for forgiveness. You can forgive yourself. This doesn't make you forgiven.
Oh, so you feel better now? You can move on with your life without the burden you have given to me. Good for you.
You are not forgiven. Somethings can't be.
Behind your facade you know this to be true. You can bury your guilt behind walls of self help and tales of dead carpenters, but it doesn't change how guilty you are.