people always comment on how tired i look all the time, and i suppose that when you haven't slept in 3 days it starts to show.
I remember how i used to sleep as a way of trying to avoid dealing with the things that were tugging at my heart strings but now it is 4:52 in the morning and im staring at them face to face.
I used to be so emotionally strong and i try to trace back to the moment i lost all my courage. Not having any fear of speaking out to a person when they wronged me. And now i so patheticfully brush off every blow and pick myself up and hand myself over completely to people that dont even have the decency to show any sign of remorse for a thing they have put me through. I so easily hold onto the words i want to say and fill their place with phrases like "its okay" and "you dont need to be sorry".