I see the side of morning That mere mortals leave alone
Unlike them I never find myself wrapped safely in a dream My face covered in silken strands of subconscious Safe from shining stars Instead I’m wide-eyed and wide awake My mind dancing with the kind of energy That first set the Earth into orbit It’s thrilling And maddening But mostly exhausting 1 am tugs on the consciousness like an eager puppy And a sleepless mind doesn’t have the strength To stay put So it scatters Sets itself adrift in swirling darkness To relive all the memories sparked to life by starlight
Tonight is particularly maddening For you keep running my thoughts aground My poor brain keeps bumping into you and faltering So I can’t help but feel That your absence is more conspicuous than I’d like to admit Silly boy You’ve gone and made me fall too fast But your desire to keep me didn’t spike at the same rate Our slopes are all off Yours a gentle incline And mine slippery steep like the dreamlessness that traps me I can’t help but wonder Why you swathed me in soft kisses to keep me safe from shining stars If you didn’t mean to see the night through
2 am has a Siren’s song Seducing my sleepless self And the rare nights I manage to plug my ears I dream of dragons I dream of kings and queens and knights of old Of chivalrous swords wielded for a lady’s honor Here My fears breathe fire And are cut down by Sir Knight’s steel It’s a welcome change from my own daily jousting To have someone notice my tired helplessness And come to the rescue
I’ve found that’s all I need Just a little rescuing For the morning always seems so much softer When cushioned by a warm body A knight to close my eyes against the darkness When my past is breathing fire in my ear You had seemed so earnest when you whispered Please tell me you don’t want me to leave So when I let you stay Was I a fool to think you were more than just shell-shocked?
In truth I only have myself to blame For if I had no expectations I would never be disappointed I know that the moon can be dazzling Especially when reflected off a glittering girl So I’m sorry if I got sparkles in your eyes You have to understand One cannot dote upon the night sky Without gaining a layer of stardust I can see how you might have mistaken me for some Ethereal creature Some glimmering goddess of old And so perhaps your absence means you realized That I’m just another Earthly human with bags under her eyes Or perhaps it’s so much simpler And you just got tired of the shine Either way It’s 3 in the morning Sir Knight is nowhere to be found And I am disappointed