I wish I could tell you

All the things I need to say

Right here

Right now

Now is where we belong

Now is the time and place

But can I tell you? Could I scare you off?

These are all the things I worry about at night.

See, if you knew the truth about everything I need to say

Then you would see the real me and understand.

That I can’t tell you even though I want to.

It would change the way you would see me.

I want you to know that it hasn’t changed.

If anything my feelings have gotten stronger about the way I feel

Do you remember that day when you shoved a bagel in my face?

That day you gave me a massage?

That day you barreled into me to give me a goofy bear hug?

Those things are what I miss, your laugh, your touch, your caring nature.

That time where we talked until the late hours of the night,

When we talked about nothing but randomness all day.

These are the times I will always remember.

The times where we could let go of the world and just be who we are.

Those days I wish I could’ve said

I love you.