In 1988 at lake murray we took a boat ride.
Our feelings we kept secret inside.
You didn't support me, you weren't by my side.
You moved away, and in 2009 you died.
I missed you & I cried.
Staying together couldn't be buyed.
Having fun without you was lied.
Divorce was a knot never untied.
A relationship that could'nt last.
Not since the curse was cast.
A love severed so fast.
Regrets & pain fill our past.
Ourselves, our lives & what made us who. Memories so far & few.
Why did you have to go to Sedona?
Why didn't you stay in California?
Instead you moved to Arizona.
I never believed you really would.
I didn't make the time I really should.
I guess we had a chance.
But it wasn't a simple dance.
At your photograph I often glance.
My thoughts of you are mostly sad.
I never really got to have you for a dad.
My past childhood makes me mad.
The few memories feel glad.
Things happen that are bad.
There's more things I wish we had.
Occasionally I get an awful feeling.
A need for a peculiar dealing.
I need closure with a sealing.
My spirit got cracked & has peeling. I guess I need soul healing. I used to have so much hope. I never could handle abandonment & cope.