I lay in the depths of the past
still stuck and struck with fear as normality stays the same, my nightmares steer their way.
I lay in the ocean of regret
stained with my mistakes,  they brake me like waves that never set me free
as I drown in the cold melancholy of my life.
I lay in a lie,
telling myself what I want to hear, always knowing the reality from the dreams and what I'll always want things to seem.
its all true, I dont fear anymore.
Im just laying.