It's hard to write this piece Not because I have gushing words But because I don't know where to start I sit here pondering, digging, waiting But sadly I decay here Not even knowing who I am They say a man is the product of his time But has our time created this mask This curtain I cower behind? I rip the wallpaper and tear the sheets That shrouds my face I know is real But the more I dig the more self-conscience I feel As I break down the walls people look in as well Light breaks through the tiny holes Piercing the veil of uncertainty And I'm afraid they laugh at me Without any filter To shade me from the revealing beams
But now I found it What I was digging for I finally understand who I am I am a boy, I am a man Who has lived his life with his eyes closed Who has turned blind eye to the others like me Fending only for myself And hiding from the glare No one said the "real you" would be pretty And perhaps that's why we run from ourselves To scamper away and disappear for good And fashion a facade to live behind And this is who I am As painful as I care to admit I have been living a life of doubt And when you take the filter out And let the light shine down on me I am a man with the courage of a boy Who is beginning to finally see