Life seems perfect For hitlers dream girl right Blonde hair blue eyes I bet her life is as picture perfect As her selfies I bet she has everything handed to her I bet she's never struggled A day in her ******* life
Well life ain't been a walk in the park It hasn't been a ******* breeze But it should have been I hope I'm making it look easy I hope I don't look like my struggles
I'm flattered you don't notice the bags under my eyes Or the scars all over my body Because I'm not the one Who put them there I'm glad that what I've been through And what people have done to me Isn't written on my ******* forehead For everyone and their ******* mom to read
But don't sit here and try to read me Because I'm not a ******* open book I'm completely shut off And locked away But I'll be ****** if I hand you the key And let you read a couple of chapters into me And then use your new found knowledge against me *******
You don't know how many nights I've laid awake all night Because the thought of another nightmare was scarier than the nightmare itself You don't ******* know what it feels like to walk through hell While holding the devils hand You could never understand Anything I've ever been through Unless you've been through it to
So don't come to me and confide in me And ask for a piece of my strength Because you're "going through the same thing" AND THEN TELL ME IM ****** UP FOR NOT HANDLING IT THE SAME WAY AS YOU don't ******* tell me That I have issues that I'm stupid That I NEED HELP because I'm more than aware
I don't need you to tell me I don't need you to sympathize with me I don't need you for anything I'm still standing here after all of that And I'm proud of that Because I can't tell you how many times I searched the back of my closet for my strength to stay I can't tell you how many times I've broke down and screamed at god To stop putting me through all this misery To take me out of my ******* misery
I don't need you to reiterate and reassure me that I don't need to be here I know I don't deserve to be here But I still fight to be here everyday And I WOULD NEVER Make someone feel as low as me
So get on twitter Slide into my DMs And let me know I'm a ******* Because you're not telling me anything I don't already know Why do you think I date the guys I do ? BECAUSE THATS ALL I THINK I DESERVE
but I'll tell you you deserve better Because every else does And I'll never stoop to your level So go ahead and try to bring me down Because I'm already six feet in the ground I died at 15 but hopefully my casket won't close For many years Because I need to be here To make you and everyone else around me Still feel alive
My zombie body is Fueled off people seeing me still somehow breathing Against all odds When probably nobody would blame me For giving up And closing my casket for good
If anyone in this room understands And has gone through what I have I hope you know you're not alone And I will give you my very last breath To let you know you deserve to be alive Because you deserve to be here more than me And knowing that I'm keeping you alive Will keep my zombified body going