maybe it's because the only
time i can hear myself think
is when it's
quiet
and i don't have to worry about
speak up, no one can hear you
or having something to say
that no one will listen to

because i'm absolutely sick of
people telling me they understand
when i haven't even finished the story

and maybe it's because
at 4am
i don't need to
speak at all
to be
heard
by me