God, I don’t want to break, but my bones have forgotten how to move without his puppetry to lead them.
I am bending the wrong way- pulling muscles, twisting myself into dances I did not learn my feet are slipping on the floor
and you find yourself laughing because you do not catch me you puppeteer you mockery you mock me as I lifelessly move for you
I cannot break these strings you’ve attached to me they are sewn into my heart, my lungs, my head cannot think for itself anymore as he watches me, this mockery,
I did not want to dance for you when I fell but the evenings catch my shadow moving in beat-less motions you twist me into your smile
and I cringe the best way a puppet can cringe with strings attached to my mouth smiling only out of fear.