Your negative thoughts cannot touch me,
His love obliterates the hatred,
The numbness is gone,
What was once raging seas,
Is now calm oceans,
I think of Him and there is no depth of pain,
I am free,
I am wanted,
He pulled me into his arms,
Whispering, I love you kid,
The tears didn't fall,
But they sprinted,
I no longer look in the mirror,
And see you shining back,
Just me,
My blue eyes,
My pale face,
Freckles dotting a bridge across my nose,
Maybe constellations,
For a second a see a flicker of beauty,
My own doing,
Because if you can't be responsible for something you created,
Then you cannot take credit for its beauty,
The only father I need is in heaven,
Because he wants me dad, Matt, whoever you are,
I laughed on new years knowing you'd be drunk,
Still single,
Always mingling with the wrong crowd pops,
Like my mum,
You're just a crack in the side walk,
And when I say I don't care about you,
I'm not lying,
Anymore.