I remember how whenever I see a family
The siblings are so nice too each other
You can see the love between them

As I slide the blade across my stomach
I wish I had that
I wish someone loved me

It makes me wonder
"Why me?"
"What is wrong with me"
"What the hell did I do to have god make my life so ******??.....if there even is a god.."

I wish I had a reason.