Even when knowing yourself that you were in the wrong the initiator of burden was you all along
Guilt so relenting words can't describe what it is you're lamenting what you did embibe
A durrator of pain placing love under siege an addiction of betrayal even on anniversary this day, New Years Eve
An easy escape from this world may suffice a permanent cape thrown over your life
At no time before have I felt more certain to pull one last time my final life's curtain
If I look at results I know I the Loser in these games of love I played the snoozer
Took it for granted played with life strings thought I was clever now my ache sings
Could ration the reason make it quick, do emplor no matter the season limit the gore
And yet I live because I've been here before by the choices I've made and I'll choose some more
This time personal problems needing endless satiation will learn and thus do delayed gratification
Not just at love but in all that is layered family, friends, work, dog successes made by a life prepared
There will always be scars life is fight from begining to expect anything less... ...that's a life not worth living
Some days just getting up to move is a struggle, life rewards effort, the only contestant in your life is you, without the struggle we won't appreciate the rewards, go do something-anything, start, have goals, you will live a life worth living