Can I reach you now?

from the place where no words echo
outside those four dark walls where all is flux & silent

or in the back of the car
where, out of my mind, I saw you
through my madness I grasped you standing in the shifting light
your face rearranged and opaque
haloed with a pale pure glow like thorned gold

Are you there and living?

even as the threat of distant separation
closes the gates and rends your heart
collapsing narrow vessels till the pulse of life has vanished
& nothing to revive that aching howl you felt
screaming into this new dream - which seemed more real than before

cold & naked as the pure, trickling rationality
begged you to move
staggering off toward the desolate company of warm arms/loving glances

mountains of your newborn confusion
decomposed & spread out on the fields
under the sun
awaiting the face of God
as the world turned to look upon invisible eyes
watching