though i k e e p thinking i should be kinder, i should care more, i should give more but h o w do i do that when i give from the inside out, reach all the way down to the bottom of my stomach and dig out anything anything anything that might be of use or want until i am scraped raw and uncontentingly empty. but if you want more i will f i n d it. i will stretch my arm further, i will pull out every inch of whatever is left in there if you need it that badly.