Have you ever had to come to the realization that the ex that you broke up with, ended up "winning" pre split. I never for a second, thought at the time that I would be anything but extraordinary, and that life would be exciting. I was supposed to be extra ordinary. The next thing I'm going to hear, is that he's engaged to be married to a beautiful red head with long hair, and eyes that are excentuated perfectly with little eye liner and mascara. And is everything I am still trying to be. It's not even that I regret leaving him, it's that I turned out to be the loser, who's still living at home with her parents, works a terrible fast food job, and has no money, no adventures, a dull love life. It's just a terrible feeling when one day you realize, you lost.