I should be happy for today. I mean its Christmas Eve. But how can I be happy? Its been a month today, And its been the worst month of my life. Not only that, but you'll be spending "the most wonderful time of the year" with him instead of me. I'm dying inside, but nobody will ever know. All they will ever see is the face I've painted on the outside of my shell.
I hope your Christmas is better than mine will ever be.