Pluto

Pluto Oct 2013

cracked.

is my heart
a shattered ground
a surface for you to tread upon?

Pluto Oct 2013

um,

hey.
I sort of,
really
cannot breathe.
not just
when you are(n't)
around,
but right now
and many other times
I've caught myself
at the edge of a final
exhalation,
too.
and when I think I can
finally
breathe,
it's like
I just don't want to,

anymore.

I hit enter and went to a new line with every breath I took.
really though,
I cannot breathe
normally.

Pluto Oct 2013

damaged.

I am damaged
so, so damaged.
but will you still love me?

Pluto Oct 2013

let's wander with wonder.

I constantly wonder about you
and if your thoughts wander,
do they wonder about me.

I like to stare deep into your
wandering eyes
and wonder what lies deep inside

you.

I constantly wonder about you.
do you wonder about me?
because one day I'd like you,
to wander with me too.

something I found in the 'old pages'.

I wonder, if I'd like to wander, a little more.

Pluto Oct 2013

.

what if the monsters in my head are the ones that want me dead instead?

Pluto Oct 2013

thirty-three days

I’m going
To allow the wind
To whisk me away.
I’m going to give
The sky
A chance to kiss me
On my sunburnt cheeks
And wandering mind.
And whilst
The journey continues
Through the clouds
I’m going
To allow my dreams
To carry me
Someplace
Far
Away.

Pluto Oct 2013

reality check.

and here I am again
in tears
bloodied and broken
by this mess I made of myself.
it's funny how
although I thought I could be stronger,
I'm left curled up in a corner
weak and powerless.
it's funny how things turn out to be,
eventually.

**I am not strong. Never will be. I have to quit lying to myself, and ******* face reality.