You can't have too much
sugar coated
sweet and broken

If you lack the stuff
feel easy now
this clinic serves a better drug

Hell is here
at 10:11

Life in fear
of losing Heaven

can't think
these ******* keep pushing
**** them
**** this
**** it all

The light is getting clearer
at the end of the tunnel
just not soon enough

Chaos runs deeper
with her every touch
so what the ****

I took that dog for a walk tonight
needy *****
always barking in my ear
in my soul

hoping he'll calm down
after our long walk alone

The Help says walks are healthy
I hope She's right
Because I shouldn't be the only one watching him

I love that dog
He always looks so happy to see me
So I feed him my hope
bathe him in my dreams
I walk him through the secrets
I haven't even told myself

Still he barks at me

Finally a little warm inside
yet here I am writing this thing with him beside me

and I meant to leave him outside.

I think I love this dog.

I run from things
because they chase me
Clouds on the horizon
diving in and out
brooding like me
tumbling like me
churning like me

the clouds are getting closer now

I think I need help.

She reached out her hand
65 times she's been around the sun
and I don't know if I can trust her

is there wisdom in not going in alone?
Or does that take something from me
that I will never get back

I feel the rain begin to lose its grip on the sky
and I can't hold on any longer
the clouds looked so small on the horizon
but they're getting closer now
and I see they were never so small

I don't want to see her
but my parents think she can help
I can't tell them not to spend their money on me
because part of me hopes I'm wrong
and they're right

I got drunk on December 28th
and totaled my fathers car going 80 into a concrete wall
He loved that car.
I think I need help.

Don't look them in the eyes
they'll see you
aces
sunken in sweaty palms

Breath casual
smoke like sandpaper
rolling off your tongue
don't look them in the eyes
they'll see you

you're bluffing
you call
another raise
and the current
is over you

looks like a party
so why not play?
you forget there's only one winner
in this game

chips falling now
a hard days work through your fingers
and after all this
she leaves you

just like all the others.

A heart is not a thing for gambling
yet here you are
and here she isn't

only as the cards are landing
all she needed
was an instant

and she leaves you like the others.

Shuffle Some Time
make your odds
this is how the game
is supposed to be played

I
You
We
are really not so promising

I
her
us
are left with our thoughts




this kid
big and bad
looking for trouble
where there isn't any

He makes all this pointlessness
seem like such a waste of time

So sad we wander how we do
when the answers are right in front of us
how come we can't stop looking?

I broke my elbow one time
not really,
but thats what I've been telling people
since I was 16

it just sounds better

big and bad is always more interesting
than the sweet average we all try to achieve

writing with writers block.
this is what I imagine smoking with lung cancer must feel like
certain doom
so why not go down swinging

to whoever is unfortunate enough
to read this far
I'm not pretending this makes any sense

and you shouldn't either

Sorry about all this nonsense.