JS - Hello Poetry

JS Jun 2016

I poured myself an ocean
So I could learn how to swim
slipping from the surface
the torture that its been

JS Jun 2016

In the morning I ask,
“What is it that you seek from me?
What scars do I reveal in my self pity?”

I wish them away
And they linger
Infected by a festering thought
That I can’t think or find

Where are you my pain?
Where are you my doubt?
Come out into the open
And let us burn together

In the evening I beg,
“What is it I carry that sinks deeper everyday?
What wound is this, so calloused,
That I cannot find its place?”

Am I washed up with my dignity and old age
On an island without means?
How can I sacrifice my idols
If my idols are my dreams?

Where are you my Love?
I can’t find you where you’ve been
I wish with all my being
That you’d sing a song again

JS May 2016

Here I sit

moments of silence
I shutter
chest tightens
a breath after my mind in the gutter
lost itself to fake another
and hide behind my hurt

Here I fall from happiness
the ***** without a hold
I tense
and brace for ground
which races toward my body

Here I wake
a piece of meat
with a piece of cake
trying to prove my life's at stake
to save the one's I love

Here I rest at last
the spirit changes
far too fast
and I can't know how I should pass
this Love from me to you

So listen deep and listen true
before you tell yourself
what's to lose.

JS Apr 2016

Shy

I hear pinging
My elbow cracks
She rests on my shoulder
and I dance with the future

Mallets are our feet
and our steps still ringing
have left me swooning
for your every arrival

under my breath
I sing these melodies
certainly they can't go on forever
but how long before then?
Kiss me to forget the past
and remember the present

I dance with the future
because she's a curious girl
You trickle your presence
right through me
until I am here wishing you were too

still
it's not to far
and you worry too much
Kiss me to let go of the future
and remember the present

As we connect
I'll show us a thing or two about passion
Still shy while you shouldn't be
so I give it time
and the present starts to forget our names

JS Apr 2016

Home by Midnight

the first,
in the middle of an ocean
the last,
being hidden by the glass

I swell into her
a wave falling to the sand
smiling with her eyes
I feel

JS Mar 2016

Never Know

You hesitated
It caught you by surprise

the picture faded
right before your eyes

you might have made it
if you could let it go

but you hesitated
and now we'll never know

(now we'll never know)

you broke a promise
you never meant to keep

JS Mar 2016

Sunday Morning

**** Love
making cowards of us all

either too scared to let it fail
or too scared to answer its call

**** Love for all its selfish insecurity
piecing us together like a broken puzzle
everyone begging for attention
Love is here to fill your appetite

There is no answer to the question of love
why
what
how
when
It's never clear when it has you
It's never clear when you're free of it

Love is a snake
a viper in the trees
with an uncanny eye for humanity

I hate myself for allowing this shame
and I don't even know if I love her