she's a skeptic;
and he's a sensitive person

she's an initiator;
and he's a motivator

she's chaotic;
and he's super calm

she wish she's a nomad;
he wants to find a home

she found a new adventure in him;
he found his home in her

and they both fall in love for each other;
everyday.

I'm the girl who writes.
I write everything that comes to my mind,
I write everything that I felt.

pain,
uncertainty,
reality,
broken heart,
questions,
and sometimes, nonsense.

They are all sick of my words,
They cannot deal with my poems,

Maybe deep down, they know, that is the truth.
they know exactly, that is the current situation.
or maybe,
they just tired with all of my nonsense.

They can blame it all on me,
because today I realized,

No, I'm not a cynic nor a skeptic.
No, I'm not bitter nor a cold-hearted.

If I cannot write a love story,
If I skip them in my poems,
If I write bad things,
If I curse or intimidate them with my words,
deal with it.

Because one thing for sure,
When it comes to the right one,
I know I can write about love,
about falling in love,
about cheesy romantic things.

*It's not me, it's them.

To the brokenhearted,
I promise you, things will get better.
The rain will stop, and the Sun will shine again.
Get up, stand up, then move on.
They said time will heal eventually,
yes indeed.
Someday when you finally able to take a few step forward,
take your time to stop and look back, reflect.
I promise you, you will smile. You will be so proud of yourself.
Maybe if you are lucky enough, you will find someone who will help you to mend your broken heart. Someone who helps you to find all the pieces of your heart,
and when the time has come, you will love again.
Or maybe, you are by yourself, mending your own heart.
But that's okay. You will be fine. You will learn a lot of yourself.
and You will learn to accept, to love, and to respect yourself more.
When the time is right, I promise you, he will come.
He is the one that makes you love like you never been hurt before.
Not in the fastest way, not in the easiest way,
but I promise you, he will.
I promise you, he will love everything about you, cherish every moment with you, and respect you a lot.
He may not a prince charming, but he knows how to treat you.
I promise you, to love someone is to not hurt yourself.
Maybe he is not the one that you expect him to be,
or maybe he is exactly the one that you've been looking for this whole time.
He will make you fall head over heels yet you feel secure at the same time.
I promise you, you will find a brother, a best friend, and a lover for you.
A whole package. The one who gets you excited, the one who makes you deeply in love, the one who makes you feel so loved.
The one that makes you feel that talking to one person is enough.
I promise you, he will make you forget all the pain, all the sadness you've been through before.
He will make you forget all the love story, all the love songs, and all the memory you had before him.
Being with him is all you want. and you are willing to face things that may look impossible.
I promise you, you will find him.
Maybe he is your best friend, maybe he is someone new.
But sooner or later,
I promise you, you will find your one.

If I ever pray to God,
it is you who I've been asking for.
I'm not saying that you are perfect,
but you are the perfect fit for me.
I admire you as a person, not because of your looks,
nor your talents.
I admire your heart. I admire your thoughts.

If I ever pray to God,
I'm not asking for a Prince Charming,
I'm not a damsel in distress.
I don't need someone who will save me from danger.
But I'm asking Him for a company.
I want a good companion,
I don't crave for it. I don't mind to be alone.
But I want someone who I can spend my time with.
Someone who understands me and my peculiar habits.
Someone who won't judge. Someone who listens.
Someone who I can count on.

If I ever pray to God,
I'm not asking for a smooth sailing.
I'm asking for endurance. I'm asking for perseverance.
I know this relationship would be hard. as hell.
I don't crave for status. But I need to know where am I.
I cannot be floating in the middle of the sea without any certainty.

If I ever pray to God,
I'm not asking for a happy ending.
I don't expect myself to be falling this deep for someone.
I don't think that I would love this hard again, after everything that happened before.
But falling for you, I can't help it.
You are the one that I think is enough. You are the whole package.
Finally, I feel that talking to one person is enough.

I'm seeing myself like seasons.
Change every certain month, change whenever I want.
But you are my autumn. my comfort. my favorite season.
and I want to spend it my whole life.
I'm not easy to bear with. But you are the one that makes me love again.
You are the one that I know, I want.
Stay. Please.
Even when the circumstances don't let us be together,
at least I've tried to be your best. at least we've tried.

If I ever pray to God,
*it is you who I've been asking for.

When you look me in the eyes,
When you hold my hand tight,
When you touch my cheek,
When you talk to me,
When you hug me tight,

..is when I know what could be better,
what could be nicer,
what could be lovelier,
than let your arms all around me,
and mine all around you..
For a while..

It feels like,
I know for sure;
that everything's gonna be alright.

You always said,
"I always believe that there's a good guy for you,
somewhere, out there."

You always told me,
"fall for someone that does not only give you comfort,
but also the one that makes you fall for his personality."

"the one that loves you so much,
the one that can lead the relationship,
the one that can make you listen,
the one who will always get you excited,

You always said to me,
"I hope you are in the good hand someday,
so, I can leave you in peace.

I always smiled when you start rambling about this,
what if,
someday I tell you,
"I've found that guy."
Will you be surprised, if I say, **it is you?

You always said,
you've learnt,  you've changed,
that you are now better
I do see it,
But I don't believe it.

.. You will be always being you:
Shallow;
Inconsiderate;
Dishonest.

Cz recently,
I finally found the last missing pieces of the puzzle;
At our last moment though, you still lied to me.

Well, I guess that explains all,
Liars gonna lie
.

I hope moving on was that easy.
I'm a believer of "time will heal eventually"
but this time, is different.

She met that Taurian last summer.
When everything was a mess;
He came to her life in a blink of an eye and made everything so much brighter to her.

She cherishes her day from that very moment.
She always convinces herself that he is the one that God sent her to be hers.
She knows that he is the one.

But she was young and stupid.
She lost him twice,
because of her own stupidity.

She thought, there is somebody who's better than Taurian.
So she left him, without a trace.
She is wrong.
and you know, you can't treat Taurian that way.

This Valentine's day,
When she's trying to make things right,
he replies her,
"Nope, it's okay. I'm your friend."

and from that moment,
*she knows, she is doomed.

Every time people ask about my dream,
I told them about you.
All you've got,
All you've not.

Every time they ask about my fantasy,
I told them about you,
Every little details about you,
Every little thing you do.

But then,
Every time I fall in love,
I hope it was you.