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May 2014 · 3.7k
why i need feminism
aphrodi May 2014
when i was 4 i was ashamed of feminity
when i was 5 i started comparing myself to other girls
when i was 7 i weighed myself on a daily basis
when i was 8 i thought that if i wasnt skinny i wasnt beautiful
when i was 10 i learned the word "****"
when i was 12 i hurt myself because i didnt think i was good enough
when i was 13 i wore a shirt that showed my shoulders in school. i was told i was asking for it
when i was 14 i had to go to a psychologist because my self esteem was so low i wanted to die
i still cant wear a skirt without someone commenting on its length
i still cant speak my mind and have a man take me seriously
i still cant mutter the word "feminism" without a boy looking at me like i'm ****
i still look in the mirror and hate myself
i still wonder if im asking for it
i still worry about walking the streets alone and my brother never did
i still get asked why i need feminism
because being called a girl is an insult
because men STILL think its all about men
because im more worried about being ***** than how my grades are
because no matter how smart i am, a boy is somehow better
because girls still die everyday as feminism is disregarded
because feminism is "a joke"
because "why isnt it called equalism?"
because i feel that we are worth it
Feb 2014 · 494
ID
aphrodi Feb 2014
ID
i identify with flowers a lot
not because theyre beautiful and
lively and independent
but because i am weak
and i am wilting
and im waiting for someone to pick me
Jan 2014 · 408
noon
aphrodi Jan 2014
tired eyes
butterflies
cuts are healing on my thighs
starting to feel like im
alright
Dec 2013 · 465
midnight
aphrodi Dec 2013
sad eyes
cut thighs
feels like im gonna cry
Dec 2013 · 363
a thought
aphrodi Dec 2013
if you looked right into my eyes
and said i was beautiful
without hesitation
i would look straight back into your eyes
lean in close
and say you're a liar
Dec 2013 · 402
miles
aphrodi Dec 2013
i really love him
but theres restraints
miles and miles
a w a y
i miss him without even
losing him
Oct 2013 · 334
in love
aphrodi Oct 2013
i fell, i fell, i fell
why didn't you try to catch me
Sep 2013 · 643
impact
aphrodi Sep 2013
i wonder
how do my words effect you?
your words to me
are  little bullets
making holes in my skin
it's hard to forget them
they just dig in so deep
scraping my bone
and my soul
sometimes i wish i had more holes
Sep 2013 · 220
Untitled
aphrodi Sep 2013
deeper down i dug
telling you everything
did you care
Sep 2013 · 606
pulled
aphrodi Sep 2013
their toxic vibes are
sending off triggers inside of my mind
bam bam bam
Sep 2013 · 348
be mine
aphrodi Sep 2013
beautiful, beautiful are your lies
engulfing  me slowly, desolving in tears
maybe, just maybe you are telling the truth
"ignorance is bliss, *** didn't they tell you?"
never did i ever believe i'd cry over you
every night
Sep 2013 · 358
yes you
aphrodi Sep 2013
remember
all the times you told me you love me
killing me inside, afraid you're a liar
oh darling how many times have i cried over you
Sep 2013 · 344
Untitled
aphrodi Sep 2013
it has just occured to me
that most of these poems
(if they're worthy of the title "poems")
are about you
and how one minute
everything seems to be going
fanastic
and then you take your toxic charms
and make me feel
like
****
Sep 2013 · 244
dreams
aphrodi Sep 2013
why do you not dream of me
you told me you think of me all the time
so why are your dreams
about someone else
Sep 2013 · 3.2k
anxiety
aphrodi Sep 2013
how can such an ugly thing
look so pretty
as its written
anx-i-et-y
Sep 2013 · 275
the ex
aphrodi Sep 2013
does he need to get over me
or do i
need to
get over
myself
Aug 2013 · 4.8k
lego blocks
aphrodi Aug 2013
i wonder some days
if you would be happy without me
because
at this moment
thinking that i could be without you
makes me feel like
i wouldnt be happy like i am now ever again
do you miss me when i cant talk one day
do you want to kiss me in the middle of the night
when you are drifting to sleep
do you realize you can break me down
quicker than you could build me up
legos ready to topple over
Aug 2013 · 890
good vibes
aphrodi Aug 2013
today was a beautiful day
and when you told me  
you loved me
i believed it
Aug 2013 · 342
Untitled
aphrodi Aug 2013
you keep saying that it'll be ok
and that you love me
but you never said most
quiet voices whispering
that they are so much better to you
than i ever could be
i want to tell them thats a lie
and i love you with my whole heart
but the voices are relentless
and tell me you dont feel the same
Aug 2013 · 375
bitter feelings
aphrodi Aug 2013
will i be forgotten like him
kicked aside and left alone
promises that i mean the world to you
how many times have you used that line
why does it still make me feel remarkable
my heart is an eggshell ready to shatter
at your steady strong hand
and then tossed to the trash
not even worth a memory
not sweet enough i guess
Aug 2013 · 493
because
aphrodi Aug 2013
im so sick of feeling worthless
and its because of you
my mind is jumbled
and my eyes sting
because of you
and i hate that you
can make me feel so great
just to knock me down like
a tower of blocks
because my anxiety is much
stronger than
me
Aug 2013 · 297
i was so stupid
aphrodi Aug 2013
you could see the light drain for my eyes
that night when i realized
im not all that special
for once i thought
i could be worth something
Aug 2013 · 226
Untitled
aphrodi Aug 2013
i wanted to write poetry from my heart
i had beautiful ideas in my head
that i couldnt communicate
to the page
Aug 2013 · 246
thinking of you at 3 am
aphrodi Aug 2013
are you thinking
about me too

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