One year ago,
I met your eyes.
I met those beautiful,
brown eyes.
I saw your grace,
not only in your heart,
but in your movements.
I met your kindness
and I felt like I was valued.
I met your flaws
and you met mine.
And even though
you didn't know,
you stole my heart
right from my hand
and kept it for yourself.

it comes to feed again
it's claws scream,
my blood thriving
in its veins.
it scratches at my bed
my headboard is creaking
no, wait, it's at my feet now.
God help me, i hear it smiling
i hear it's evil joy laughing in my ear.
Oh, Lord, save me, please
the floorboards are creaking now
and something's tearing off my sheets.
i want to run, but i'm helpless
i let it crawl on my bed
i let it's fingers pry open my mouth
i let it's claws inside my throat
and still am helpless to the blood
pouring from my lips.
it's eyes are inside me
they stare at my nakedness,
waiting for my pride to lower
my hands from myself.
the blood from its teeth
drips down my chest
and seeps into my heart.
my floorboards no longer creak
and it need no longer seek.
it has found me.
oh God help me
my fear
is
a
monster.

Think about it this way, love.
I know you hurt bad
and I know they broke your heart.
So. Many. Times.
But think about it this way,
they were just standing in your way.
Because one day, my love,
you will find the other half
of your broken heart
and they knew that they
would never be able to be fit.

Take notice,
we are human
and nothing but.

i'm a trainwreck again
and it's all your fault, you know.
you took my world of black and white
and shook it upside down.

you filled my head with wonder
and my thoughts began to wander
back and forth, forth and back
they were only filled with you.

i thought i was alone
and i thought i liked it too,
but then you came along
i found i loved the number two.

i'm a mess, you see
i used to be neat and tidy
i pushed my feelings under my bed
and accepted that instead.

but you, oh you
you pushed my feelings back out
i was surprised to see them again
and wasn't sure about that route

but you, oh you
you gave me a sky
and told me to fly
and ditch my world
my world of black and white.

you told me to love color
because unlike any other,
my eyes were green and blue,
brown and black and grey,
all the way, through and through.

so now i love you
and you love me
me and my trainwreck