she treats me
like i'm normal
she doesn't see
the difference in me
as flaws and mistakes
she accepts me
despite all of my
insecurities and broken parts
she listens to my complains
and ignores my crying routine
as if it's a normal habit
she's been there for me
for as long as i can remember
through thick and thin
through sadness and happiness
but most of all,
she loves me
just as much as i love her

I'M SO SORRY THAT I'M SUCH A HORRIBLE PERSON AND I'M NOT SAYING THIS JUST SO I CAN HEAR YOUR COMPLIMENTS BUT I REALLY REALLY MEAN IT. HONESTLY DARLING ALL I'VE EVER THOUGHT ABOUT IS HOW AMAZING YOU ARE AND HOW EVENTUALLY WE WILL END UP BEING STRANGERS AT THE SAME TIME. I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME BUT I NEVER KNEW THAT I COULD LOSE AND BUILD HOPE ALTOGETHER. I SWEAR I HAD CONVINCED MYSELF THAT NOT EVERYTHING I WROTE IS ABOUT YOU BUT THE TRUTH IS, YOU ARE HIDDEN BENEATH EVERY WORD OF MY POEMS. HELL, I ONLY WRITE POEMS AS AN EXCUSE TO TELL THE WORLD ABOUT YOU WITHOUT BEING ANNOYING. I'M HONESTLY IN LOVE WITH THE WAY YOU LOOKED AT ME THIS AFTERNOON BECAUSE YOUR EYES WERE SHINING SO BRIGHT I COULD GO BLIND JUST BY LOOKING AT THEM. I ALSO LOVE THE WAY YOU STROKE MY CHEEK EVERY TIME OUR EYES MEET BUT I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW YOU MANAGE TO DO IT WITHOUT THROWING UP OR GETTING SICK. OH ***** IT, I NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW YOUR MIND WORKS. I WONDER HOW YOU NEVER STOP CALLING ME BEAUTIFUL EVEN THOUGH I SHAKE MY HEAD ALL THE TIME AT THOSE WORDS. DARLING, TRUST ME WHEN I SAY THAT I NEVER SEEK FOR YOUR COMPLIMENTS. BEING WITH YOU IS ENOUGH FOR ME AND AT THIS POINT I DON'T THINK IT EVEN MATTERS IF YOU LOVE ME OR NOT BECAUSE ALL I KNOW IS THAT I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU. RIGHT NOW I'M GIVING MYSELF A ******* FOR FALLING FOR YOU SO EASILY BUT WHO EVEN CARES? YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU DIDN'T MIND BEING A SHORE AS LONG AS I COULD BE THE WAVE AND CRASHED ONTO YOU. I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT ALL THE THINGS I WROTE ABOVE ARE NOTHING BUT A MESSY EXPLANATION OF MY FEELINGS. I GUESS I'M TRYING TOO HARD NOW, I DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND ANYTHING THAT I WRITE.

you say it's too soon
to even say the beautiful three words
but last night you pulled me closer
and i could taste the cigarettes
on your lips, and
feel the smoke on your tongue
i saw constellations in your eyes
i wonder if the stars were made
of our love
the scent of your body still
haunts me every night
you are my favorite dream
and nightmares

and i'm in love with you.

bukan dentuman rasa
yang membuat ini indah
hatiku tidak berdegup kencang didekatmu
perutku tidak melahirkan kupu-kupu
dalam pelukanmu
semuanya setenang lautan, kini
meski orang bilang
sepi sama dengan bosan
tapi air beriak tanda tak dalam, sayang
dan tak ada yang pergi jauh
melewati arung jeram
aku mencintaimu dalam kesunyian
aku harap kau merasakan hal yang sama, juga