Penelope Winter

Penelope Winter Dec 2021

Three have succeeded.
Two shouldn’t count.
One never knew.
None stayed anyway.

- p. winter

my birthday is in like two and a half months and I’m not sure if by now I should have figured out what love is yet… cuz every time I think I got it, it ends with me very angry and my good friend hindsight makes a 47 slide powerpoint on all the reasons why it was in fact not love and I am simply an idiot. maybe I just want to be loved so badly that I will call anything love. or I just love so easily I refuse to call it love when I’ve been hurt and look back on how quickly I gave my heart away. young and stupid and desperate to matter to someone the way they matter to me. and by golly is that a pitiful desire to have.

Penelope Winter Dec 2021

Little Bird

Little bird, it was not yet
Your time to meet the sky.
How eagerly you leapt and, oh,
How oft for you I cry.

- p. winter

imagine thinking the time has come for you to move forward in something only to find out you jumped too soon and now youre actually right back where you started except now you've tasted what it would have been like and it makes the regret for how certain you were all the more powerful because you feel stupid for how surely you thought you were right lol **** that would ****

Penelope Winter Dec 2021

Maria

Maria all but said goodbye,
Maria ran with haste,
Maria would at last receive
The love she loy'lly chased.
Maria left her life behind,
Without a chance to cry.
But Maria gave too much, too soon,
And watched her lover die.

- p. winter

imagine thinking you're about to move forward in a relationship and then realizing you're actually losing the relationship as a whole :) poor maria :)))))

Penelope Winter Dec 2021

Untitled

You know how I agree
That we were never meant to be,
But the nights I spent
Preparing to be yours
You didn’t see,
As I thought and prayed
And told myself
That you could possibly
Be worth the time
And worth the wait
And worth the misery.

- p. winter

4:30am speed write woop

Penelope Winter Dec 2021

To Freeze is To Die Numb

The loneliness of night settles down.
A star faintly illuminates
My slowly fading footprints
As I limp through the snow.
Without coat or shoes,
I let the cold
Consume me
One last
Time.

- p. winter

baby's first nonet

Penelope Winter Dec 2021

Involuntarily Sentimental

My memories so wistful,
          As I grab them by the fistful,
Glint with melancholy ire,
          As I throw them in the fire,
And my desperation spurn,
          As I watch them fail to burn.

- p. winter

I learned the word spurn today

Penelope Winter Dec 2021

A Letter to Love

If ever I forgive you
For the emptiness I feel,
Know that it took all my strength
To force my pride to kneel.

And if ever I regain the sense
My heart alone has worth,
Know I fought to find it
When you left me in its dearth.

- p. winter

its that time of year again where i shut myself down emotionally and mentally and zone out for most of the day to avoid being overwhelmed with emotion

as the grinch once said, help me I'm feeling