I am too bold the obsession of our seperation
A child torn from childhood shattered hourglass
In her eyes I see myself swinging from a limb
Her words tying the noose and the smiles pull it tight
She would have me gasping goodbyes spittle laced
Bullet hot fingers tracing the blown out blue veins
Dopesick for her cracked lips I would lick them clean of venom
But she is too bold for such infatuation
She would rather pick the lock
The cage in my chest where  it quietly rests
One yellow eye open fangs glimmer scarlet hues
Her neck hangs back in laughter
Nape porcelaind frail statuesque
She would snap my fingers
Like a branch and I would laugh
At pain syringed and sterile
Alcohol stained breath
I think you've  found the sweet spot
Hot barrel to my temple
Do me one last favor
Release me from this tabernacle

just nod if you understand
Close your eyes if you remember
I think you've started to
Let the memories slip between the cracks and
Now they dye your dreams
Clay colored were the thoughts of us
On a dark beach watching a gibbus moon rise
Oh you've forgotten

How two swans slept upon the pond
And we sat in the grass
Watching them drift

Naked feet
Car ride speeding next to the sea
The sky was more blue then
I remember
But I was Too young you told me
I wish I wasn't old enough to  
To feel this cut

I asked my manager this during a rough week on a day when I was terribly hungover:

"How the hell did you survive your twenties?"

His answer:

"Video games. Lots of video games."

They failed to see the value in it.
Another life deemed wasted,
but beauty burst through all the seams.
Everything is sacred.

Oh, you are the life of me.
I would have died long ago
without your love and kind heart.
I will fight for your love.
You are the one constant in my life
the north star to guide me home.
Oh, allow me a small place in your heart
a place most secure.
Oh, give me the love in your heart
and my heart can sing for all eternity
and rest in joys unspeakable
till the end
of all the days of eternity.

Act weird all the time so nobody guesses when you really are "weird".
But be silly, not threatening.
Master this, how to be funny and weird without scaring people.
Anger is for yourself.
Don't bother ridding yourself of anger.
It isn't possible.
Just aim it at yourself to counter the egotism.
You are just like everybody else.
See how ridiculous they are?
So are you.
Your best approach?
Shhhhhh.
Always attempt to be underestimated.

The varying degrees of them plus me
leaves a suffocating heat.
Please help with collecting these parts of we, as this is thus and such.
No thank you.