Once I thought we were friends
You know the kind
Who would watch each others backs
Offer a few kind words through the darkness
A cosmic hand to hold
when the family I had created around me
couldn't understand
or even hear my screams for help
Not that you heard me screaming for help
You didn't need to
You just had to be there
Needing
I think it strange how friendship can mean so little
How do we fall away
How in fact do we crawl through the misunderstanding
There is much I don't understand I guess
So I leave you measages
Which you never answer
I think of you
Hidding in corners
Watching from spaces
Looking within moments
The surreal
Is the fact that I know very soon your come out
From your hidding place
You who are your own prisoner
I will count to five now
And then I will expext to hear your voice
Will I hear it I wonder

Everything was fine
Until
You told me you
Didn't believe in forever
Now I didn't need
you to believe
that we were forever
It's just
I thought you were
Special
And you are
But I could never
Love you till eternity
Meet you on the other side
Get lost in thinking your
My soulmate
Because
When the curtain falls on your days
You will be nothing
But dust
And me
I will be wandering the never never
Still searching
But thats ok
Because on the other side all hearts
Dance to the tune of love
And all are one
With the hand of life

You laid the room
Just the way
I would of laid it myself
you held on tight
No one heard the sound of you leaving
Until it was too late
Whispers told of a life cut short
But no one really knew the truth
Blood runs deep in hearts full of pain
Glass is so transparent
A bit like men with no reson to lie
But still they do
The drugs take over in the end
Or is it mindless delusion
Whatever it was
Whatever the reason
Its so silent now your not
around  
Can you hear this pin drop
shh
Listen carefully
To the beating of our hearts
You may find the reason
Why you should of screamed for help

With these hands
I could save myself
from falling
I could reach out
before the sunsets upon the day
I could write a love song
To remind you
of why you love me
With these hands
I could build a wall
I could stop you from coming close
With these hands i could
command a thousand men
To strike the enermy
or to love thy neighbour
before the dawn
But no
Tonight when
I  use these hands
I will place them togeather
And pray
For my prayers will save
not just you and I
My prayers will reach further
Knock down bigger walls
Hold the hearts of all that need
When the prayer is answered
By the source which is so pure
And loving
that it can
Save our souls
Tonight I will not fall
And with these hands
I will reach out and hold
onto the heart of the world
In return I know I am safe
to love without fear
Of ever losing who I have become

The journey of my tears
Brings me back
Yet still
The doors are still closed
And your no where to be seen
Tears fall in vain
You play your games
But you will never win

Today there is a spanner
Stuck within the machinery
Life has twisted as many times
As it has decided to turn
And leaves me
Running short of the finishing line
Today the sun doesnt seem to
Warm that place inside that hurts
Today the pains of yesterday
Seem to penetrate my body
Like a car that fails its mot
I book in for a service
And hope for the best
But I thought I had smoothed the cracks
Left every stone unturned
Let go
Of all I couldn't control
Yet life leaves me weak
Teaching me that control is not the answer
May the storms blow over
As I know they surely will
May I feel the sun once more
Warming my soul
Take from me now
That which brings me down
May my fear
Which ever cell it dwells
Within me
Be scattered upon the wind
I really havent got time for all this
I'm needed
Always needed
So need to be strong
Within my fabric
Their seems to be a tare that needs sewing

Take from me now
What does not belong
I have paid the price
And laboured sweetly
In memories of golden corn

See my whisperings
With ears of understanding
And know that this is
Something I will
Not be part of

So as to life
I expect you
To take it back from me
I have passed the line
in which
I will do the correct thing
And be humbled

Inside will be a moments pain
And in glory the light
Will shine through
Another day
Another year

Take from me
What I do not desire to own
Take from me
My own