Do you truly think a blade can stop your tears?
As it presses itself deep within your warm flesh
Moving ever so smooth like your arm was butter
Causing shots of pain to crawl along your body
Having healthy crimson life leak from the wound

Do you truly think a pill will take it all away?
One tablet that slides down your throat
So simple in three steps to relief
As your body tightens and makes a waterfall
Having your insides become outsides that burn

Is the pain worth it?
Is suicide the key?

Having a lake of tears from friends and family
The world to you is all hate and pain
But that isn’t even half of the circle

Happiness is out there
You need to search for it
For if you give up
You are giving up on yourself

The life you could have had
Happiness you can embody
It does all exist in this crazy world

How do I know?
I lived that life
And I changed

To think what could have been
A past that did not have a future
To drive through the moment
To get stuck at the red light
The car filled with good times
Now all doors open
The passengers all fall out
Then the light turns green
You leave
Alone
Worried
Should you of left your feelings behind?
Or should you of took them with you?
Why is it so hard to shift to reverse?
But so easy to move forward

A colorful oil painting
A moist cake with frosting
Glaciers in a frozen sea
This is the image of the sky

Bubbles on warm bath water
Froth on steamed milk
A heaven of white sheets
This is the image of the sky

A for that embodies us all
So big up close
Yet so small from a far
For the image of the sky
Can be but a dream
That becomes a reality

The eyes glaze over
From the icy chill that stings
Pale sand paper lips
Grinding the smooth skin
Frozen hands squeeze together
Creating warm inner pockets
Bones become heavier
Like inner stone in the body
Air of deep blue swords
Travel up the fragile nose
The throat with an inferno
From patches of shivering flames

Winter is here again
With her mighty power
The power to create beauty
And destroy it all at once

A heart full of needles
A down poor of tears
A hammer in the head

How am I happy without you?
You left me with this pain
Can you honestly say you don’t miss me?
I miss you

The stutter of the voice
The death like feeling in the legs
A desert in the throat

You will not call
I can’t eat
I can’t sleep
Why did you do this?
You just gave me up

Shivers down the spine
Numbness of the mind
Paper cuts on the lips

Is this it?
You just want to throw it away
You want to move on
Just walk away from it all

Cramps in the fingers
Rocks in the stomach
Buzzing in the ears

The end of a relationship

Clouds of human form
The sun is chased away
The rumbling stomach
Of a hungry sky
Steal rain of fairies fall
Dancing on the ground
The screams of souls
Turning into rays of light
Hitting the wood of life
The intense power of above
Pushing through homes
Of those who dream
The act of the Heavens
Or a simple part of nature

I remember a sound time
A time of firm smile
My hand on my tepid chest
I felt an abundant marching band
The beats sung with intensity
Saturating my mind with music candy

But that was long ago
My broken chest
Now a cold pallid flesh
Sings merrily no more
My brittle hand feels no movement
Has my once satisfied heart died?

Using both of my shimmering hands
I willingly rip open my chest
Like a present of non excitement
Then what my weeping eyes saw
Sent my mind to the electric chair
There was an inky endless hole
In my once flowing heart
The warm crimson sugar
Had drained all out
This is why I could not feel

If only I could find the one called her
Maybe she has the missing piece
Then just by her alluring eyes
My heart will start a motif again
Until I feel her silk like touch
Which fills my heart back up with red

Then as we hold close
We embody each other
Becoming one prime heart
One intensely roaring band
Playing the music of flame
Then this time forgotten
Will be remembered

Laying motionless in the soft grass
My mind shuts off
My heart turns on
I stare endlessly into deep black
Into the soul of the night
I hear sweet calming music
A deep feeling of a beat
From the small band in my heart
My eyes start to dance
From one star to another
My tongue slips in
Swaying from side to side
The whole sky was my ballroom
The dark had never been more beautiful
More full of color
Then that one night

Let it take you on a ride
Feel it
Breath it

BE THE MUSIC

Let it dance with you
Embody it
Embrace it

BE THE MUSIC

Let is sing to you
Love it
Taste it

BE THE MUSIC

Let is lift you up
Bless it
Smell it

BE THE MUSIC

Stop
Listen
And get ready to

BE THE MUSIC

I wake up and to my surprise
The sun comes smiling at my eyes

My pupils do burn but no cries
Till it beats onto my thighs

I start to think of all the whys
But must stick with all my tries

The sun can fight in the rise
But in the end I win the prize

It might out do me in its size
But I’m the one that’s strong and wise

For light to dark into the skies
Makes it come to its demise

Sink into Earth it underlies
Now listen sun to my replies

“I hope you sun take my advice”
“Don’t mess with me when you arise”

Starless black night
Hidden ices
Cold winds knocking at the window
Each white angle hair
Dropping from the sky
Covering the Earth
Frightening the green
Turning it a pale white
Standing, starting at the sky
Lit by on bulb
A God in the sky
A startling sound in the distance
Like bones breaking
Body Freezes
From fright or cold?
The night is alive

When I sleep at night

I am in my own world
I am the God
I am the creator
I am the ruler
I am the king

Don’t wake me up
Cause my world to collapse

Just let me sleep
Just let me relax

The beauty

Something one tries not to see in them self

You have it all, and I know
For I cannot tell a lie
But I have no physical proof
Just the words in my mind

Beautiful is not a word for you
You should be your own word
A new form to explain things
That is too amazing to call


To have tingles jump around my body
Every time you smile at me
To look into your eyes and evaporate
All that is bad in my head

I have to keep staring
Almost like it would be a crime
To look away from such a sight
And miss a second I could of seen your face

To look at something so great
And be forced to smile
You just know that what you are seeing
Is more then beauty itself

You are yourself
You look like yourself
That is what makes you
More than beautiful

So listen to my words
For that is the only way I can prove
That you
Are the most amazing thing I have ever seen.

Life is a painting
Not just a speck of paint

To be born
Is to start with a brush and paper

To grow
Is to move the brush

The older one gets
The more the colors awaken

If a speck of paint is not right
Paint over it and create anew

For if you focus on the one point
You may not get a pretty picture

Stand at a change
A life in black and white

Silence surrounds the area
Making the body feel whole

Trees creep over and gaze with power
They seem to sneer and laugh
Telling to choose
Each holding an arrow showing a different path
A path of good or evil

But which is right?
Could one land to another arrow?

How could something look so simple
Yet be so hard to accomplish
Just walk one way
But that way could not be the way

Silence grows deeper and the heart trembles
Time is running out
The heart a ticking clock

It is time to choose
But so many paths!
Life has turned into a labyrinth

The mind tells one path
While the heart chooses another
Yet the feet are bricks to the ground

Only one thing left to do
Choose…

The path has been chosen

A perfect site
Standing tall and strong
Sharing the green of life
Each needle a ***** of pleasure
A star of heaven at the top
Covering the body of golden angel hair
Dancing sugar canes swing from each arm
Rainbow tights of night glow bright
A perfect site
For the holiday season

To close your eyes
You see a girl
Real?
Who knows

To smell her body
Feel her crisp lips
Look into her inviting eyes
Holding her close
To feel the warmth
Of the blood that flows
Is it real?
I just don’t know

The girl of your dreams
Happy?
Not really
For I would rather never see her
Then to feel the pain
Of not being able to find her

I am Earth
A ***** man in wool
A stressed mind
I can crack the ground in half
To pull you down to my level
I wrap my life around things
To make them reach to the sky

I am Wind
A beautiful lady in silk
A relaxed mind
I can destroy a world
With just a puff from inside
I can bring the heat down
With a throw of my hand

I am Water
An aged woman in damp clothes
A flowing mind
I can sink a ship
With my heavy wet tears
I can nourish the seed
To bring green back to the land

I am Fire
A hurt man in torn clothes
An angry mind
I can turn an area to dust
With the spark from my eyes
I can bring warmth
To a depressed frozen family

We are the elements
God’s power to the people
Underestimate us
And you may bring the world down

The eyes glaze over
From the icy chill

Sand paper lips
Ruby together as one

Frozen hands squeeze
Creating warm inner pockets

Winter is here again
With her mighty power

The power to create beauty
And destroy it all at once

We arrive at school
Then we say hello
We go about our day
We both leave school
Then we say goodbye
We head on home

This is our common day
Like most friends it makes us happy
You could say we have a strong bond
Two buddies just hanging out
A common day for common folk
Just two of a kind

We arrive at school
Then we say hello
We go about our day
We both leave school
You don’t say goodbye
Something is wrong

What has happened?
Our routine has changed
Why did you change it?
Did I do something wrong?
You look sad
I will talk to you tomorrow

I arrive at school
I can’t say hello
You are not there
I leave school
I can’t say goodbye….ever again

Why did you take your life?

I don’t know what to write
The mind clouded with so many things
But not able to write any down
Imagine a world in your head
But you can’t build it
Because you can’t write it down
Your pen hits the paper
Only making dots
Now moving anymore
You try to move it
But no more ink leaks
Your mind plays tricks
As you stare at a blank world
All I need is a cord from my mind
To a screen
Then I could view my thoughts
But now
The pages are blank
A world is unwritten
I don’t know what to write

Have you ever sat and thought
What happen in this day
That made your eyes want to cry
And turn your colors gray

To wake up with a smile
That runs across your face
Now has turned upside down
And stays there right in place

Did something really happen
To turn your day unkind
Or was it something you created
Deep inside your mind

The future is not written yet
Happiness can return
Just as long as you don’t make
Your heart start to burn

I know I will feel this
Until my mind has died
Not unless I fill this hole
My body tries to hide.

It all started one night
To wait for a moment
And have it feel like a life time
Surrounded by many people
But to feel like the only one
Waiting…
Wondering…
What will I see?

Life travels suddenly in slow motion
Then around the corner of my eye
Walks a vision
One that you swear will make your heart stop
And mine did
It stopped just long enough to make me realize
I remembered how to smile

You never really think true love exists
Until you find it for yourself
How do you know you found it?
That question I cannot answer
For there is no true way to describe it

So how do I explain my feelings for her?
Like this…
Close your eyes
Think of happiness only
Now picture something more
Something bigger then your whole happiness
Hard isn’t it?
To difficult for words
That is true love in my eyes
I cannot explain it
Because no words can match the feeling I get
When I see that beautiful face smile

I spent part of my life thinking there was no happy
There was no smile
There was no feeling
Until she proved me wrong
And I am glad she did

To feel again was the greatest gift
To embrace my heart was amazing
Thanks to this special girl
To miss her every second
To love her every second
To want to kiss her every second
Just to want to hold her every second
Coincidences in mind?
No…
This is a sign of my true love

Promises are hard to come by
But I made a promise I know I can keep
As long as I love her I will not leave her
Because to leave when still in love
It would be like not breathing to me
I wouldn’t be able to live
Not when I love this girl so much
My one true love

I remember when my head was an empty box
Light as a feather, useless
Now it is a book
Full of memories, full of knowledge

I remember when my mouth was a constant frown
Not even strings could hold it up
Now it is a smile of sunshine
Spreading happiness to others

I remember when my body felt lifeless
Melted and would slouch
Now it is strong
Upright and healthy

My past was broken
I wasn’t even there
Now I am back
One with the world

I remember

A simple rock is not so simple
For like they say
It’s the inside that counts
Once the outer shell is broken
A whole new world lies inside
A world of life
Full of many sparkles
Like in a person’s eyes
Full of energy

How could something small
Hold so much meaning
One word
Life

You see an image
You are inspired
Grab your paper
Grab your pen
~BLACKOUT~
Drop your pen
Loose inspiration
The mind is blank
The paper stays blank

My mind is stuck in one place
A place where I think
…and think
…and think
…and think
I am a robot
Controlled by my own brain
Could I be creating my own world?
In my mind?
All I do is think
…and think
…and think
…and think
I am starting to see my world
I will call it…
Reality

I opened the door today
Took my hidden skill
Added it to myself

We are one once again

The power of the blood
Runs through my veins again
Down to my hands
Making my fingers tingle

I grab my wand
With the magical ink
To create a picture from my mind
On a sheet of paper
But not of images
With words
Every word sends a pulse to the reader’s mind

I give them the paint
They paint the picture
For the power is back
The power to write

To close my eyes
IS to be free
To create a whole world
Beyond my shutters

A world where I can be me
A world where I can live
A world where I can be happy
A world where I am God

My dream

The little piece I have
While I am at slumber
Under light touches my lids
To open them to a word
One that hurts my eyes

Reality

Can happiness and sadness
Be in the same tear

I believe so

The feeling of pure greatness
Happy as ever
The tear wants to shed
But when the feeling goes
Happy is over

Sad kicks in
Yet the tear has not fallen
Then the emotions collide
Creating a liquid diamond
Wasted to the ground

Can happiness and sadness
Be in the same tear

I believe so

Ever wonder….
Is there a God?
Ever wonder….
Is there life out there?
Ever wonder….
Why you die?
Ever wonder….
Why no peace?
Ever wonder….
When will it all end?
Ever wonder….
Why me?
Ever wonder….
Why we wonder?

The lights go out
I lay so still
The house moves
As I hear the sounds
Darkness surrounds me
Like a thick blanket
Covering me up
Keeping my mind warm
The weight of the night
Holding me down
Making my body numb
My eyes only move
As I search through the nothingness
The silence grabs my eyelids
Pulling them tight
I take a breath
It is time

A hug of intense gravity
We sink into one another
We become one person
One heavy feeling of magnitude

With our hearts combined
We create a heart of gold
One with vast love
One that cannot be pierced or broken

Your eyes gaze into mine
I see the ocean and all its beauties
You see the land and its fascinations
Our eyes build a world of peace

Our lips sink together with splendor
We create a silent song only we can hear
A kiss of protection
A kiss of love’s pleasure

Our minds become the earth
Spinning as we both think in harmony
The brain knows our happy place
It is with each other

The loving heart
The curious eyes
The lips of passion
The minds of intelligence

We are one