Everyone's asleep
I can make food when I get home
and sprawl into my bed alone
and try to keep my head in a good place
face it
I've been wandering the streets
I've been wandering
it's not a cold dead world
it's just a cold dead world when we're blue
I refuse to admit that I should just quit
because the way I live my life is something right
it's something I can hold on to
can you hold on too?

holding my head as I jump as high as the ground
I'm falling, as high as the clouds
so, fly away with me
I'll take you around
we'll race for the mornings end
the summer comes and we
try for what's left of this dream
I'm calling you back to say
"I love you" to fix my mistakes
some say we can't live life without any faith
pride for the roads that we take
pick me up, let me in
I feel so out of place
I feel like I'm ready to go
Oh, and it's just like you
to act like you don't even care
Oh, and it's just like me
to go home in this state
you can break yourself away, do it all alone.
and they won't know
and you can thank your dad and God that you've got a home
it's somewhere to go

too real to have voice
too secondhand to have choice
and everyone I know is truly lost
and I cry for you
lift up your voice
no. you bite your tongue
gifted a choice
so, you up and run away
away.

It's too real to talk about
and I'm sorry
I cried for myself
until it stopped

I feel less than here
it's all my fault
surely I was meant to fall
into this dark
where I can't stand
pick me up
and hold my hand

I listen carefully through the wall
to people making love in the room next to me
or at least it sounds like *** to me
hmmm

your toes painted blue
a light sky hue. a whisper to me
tears roll hot down my cheek
your hair's falling out love
I'm gonna miss you when you die

Why do I get so attached
someone attacked my feelings with a baseball bat
yet to her, I stay latched
stuck like a turtle on its back

I've been picturing your face
it comes and goes all day
I hope that you do that too
edeth piaf singing sweet
it takes away my grief
and then I float, a ways
down.
come home darling. I'm alone
my heart, it will never roam
I'll sing to you when you come
back
I've been desperate
to hear your voice, my love
but if I was gifted the choice
I'd take your breath far away
Oh,
hold me tightly when you're here
sweet darling, please do not fear
till then I'm fine on the shelf
and,
your love, if it fades away
I hope when you see my face
you remember and hold me
forevermore